tomorrow is labour's day~

[school] no econs! maths test i think cant pass lah....forgot to use formula! alamak what the heck i studied for these days .....waste my time man! haiz..but then maths lect and tutorial is ok lah....i was very alert eh! hehe! pe was the worst....ya right thanks to the rain i dun need to run outside...but then i kenna circuit training...kaoz ran so many runs outside the hall....kaoz....tiring man! then finally can rest...went to watch my pals playing softball...they lost to another team which consist of my malay pals and some other class pple. haiz....but i think the main prob is that some of my pals just cant hit the ball at the correct timing....i kept hearing the judge said " strike...."...sianz GP lecture was fine...cant see the screen clearly coz the projector got some prob....the lect was given by a new teacher dunno her name...practically she was sort of reading off from the lect notes..haha....not interesting....but then she is still new lah...so cant expect that much..
[home] dad cooked a FABULOUS meal...yeah....soup with seafood+vegetables+mushrooms....one big bowl for me...alamak....now my stomach very full lor..haha. tml is labour's day! yeah no guitar prac!!! no nihongo lesson! yeah! finally my player and the soompi net working le!! can continue to watch korean drama le! kaoz now i still gotta rush 3 more episodes...damn interesting! hahaha! " xun qin ji" today last episode le..very sad...coz i dunno i can still watch tv or not....haiz...mum wanna to ban my tv le....sobs...but i still muz watch "all in " ah! dun care!!!!!
[tomorrow] so tml though is labour day...still gotta mop the floor!!!! haiz...bo bian...but then i asked my mum to go to orchard tml...coz i wanna buy a japanese dictionary...so gotta dragged her to buy...hope i can find one gd dict in TIMES bookshop ba!!! no way i am going to kinokuniya...so ex :(
[quote of the day] " though unhappiness makes up 80% of my life, the 20% of happiness is enough for me to continue with my life of colours, joy & tears." by hoon ching

singapore is unlucky

[news] a buliding's basement floor collapsed today near AYE...1 dead and 5 missing...the 2nd case after the nicholl highway accident...this time it sounds more serious coz already got 28 pple injured...and so many pple missing....pls bless sg!!!!
[school] hmm...today went home early coz ms gan cancelled econs extra lesson..haha..but then kenna scolded by mr philip tan during our dialogue session...those idiots are damn...!!!!! haiz....cant they just shut up and keep their comments to themselves...somemore i am sitting below them...kaoz :(
[ching] ok i am sick for 3 days liao....having fever on and off and serious sore throat....not strength to talk..haha! dunno how i kenna flu one...so sianz. haiz, sorry to get my parents, especially mum to be so worried abt my health..
anyway, my poor skin is in the process of recovering. hahaha! but then still got scars ah...muz wait longer for them to be completely gone....will it?
[hi5] wt invited me to join...something like friendster but i will say it is more faster and more organised...also easier to search for groups and pals! hey come and join ok? http://www.hi5.com
[quote of the day] " life is a tough journey, hardship 95% joy 5%. though we may face so many hardships, it make us grow up and let our lives be colourful and meaningful." by hoon ching

rainy monday~

[weather] finally rained in the evening, but i still feel very hot. the rain droplets are quite big, and the sky is misty.
[school] gp common test was a difficult paper for me, i think gotta fail again! haiz....today's lessons ended quickly..haha....no econs no maths! yipee!
[guitar] today didnt attend the meeting, dunno what they had decided on the costumes we are gonna to wear for our performances...haiz..wed prac is gonna to be with gu zheng...hopes everything goes well.
[graduation trip] i know it is kinda early for this...and i can confirm that i wont be able to make a decision soon....coz i dunno if my parents are going to travel at the end of the year...if they are going..then i wont join my classmates. anyway, i need my parents' permission lah...so no need to say anything now. the destination they decided is thailand. hehe..long time didnt visit there liao....9 yrs le...miss alot of things...really a land of amazing stuffs! haha! well, many things had changed i guessed...hao xiang nian ah~
[quote of the day] " a man should live righteously and not wrongly. such a man is happy in this world and in the next." from the chapter on the world, dhammapada

saturday night~

[home] just did some quizzes..some are absolutely nonsense..haha...some i dunno quite true huh?! ok whatever thanks to lesley who had the quizzes. hehe!
ok attended my nihongo lesson earlier on...wah got hmwk again..but next saturday no lesson eh..dunno why..sensei busy?
[guitar]hmm...today kevin came...like long time didnt see him liao. he showed us his new guitar with pluck from yamaha...great buy, abt 600 plus...kaoz the guitar is good quality lor..hehe...then the practice went on..jc2s finally can use the ava room le..haha...we practiced and had breaks in between..then president question if we had practiced or slack...haha...ya we did practiced when kevin was there...even after he left...we were seperated into grps and played canon...well, of coz after that some of us played other songs while some really slack..but that doesnt matter...president was suspicious of us...thought that we told lies...well, this is due to some reasons...1) we got our records of slacking during practices..so it is normal for her to suspect us. 2) simple reason, she dun trust us and that mz said we didnt practice...kaoz...he was really a sotong..maybe he himself didnt prac lor...want to play his own song fine..dun drag us in! then some of us were unhappy that president suspected us..haha...even my pal (non-guitar member) thought so! err...i am fine with it lah...wen xin wu kui! kevin want us to have lunch-time concert in 2 weeks time...i find it abit impossible..time constraint and are we ready for it? haha that is the biggest question i wanna post. lastly, we gotta play the "angel-mortal" game with jc1s...and luckily i picked a girl! yeah! but i wonder who will pick me lah..haha..i find this game lame ah coz how can i encourage someone when i cant even know what problems she has..jc1s dun practice with us lor...if i picked a jc2 then it is different lor...haiz....hope it ends after 1 month...

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ching's mirai~

[school] maths day...nothing much....time is easier to pass by doing maths then econs..haha! today's pe was actually FUN. well gotta retake nafta this may...hope i can pass...hey i can do standing board jump over the walls lor...how come flat surface cannot huh? dun get it...eh well i am in the "special class" with a few of my pals...while the rest are involved in the sports ba...well they can choose to teach or learn a sport....ya...gp lecture was abit...errr...an alumni student came to lecture...ok lah but i think he can project his voice better..well many blanks in my lecture notes...haha...dunno how to study leh.
[home] suddenly realised that my fridge is very packed thesedays...finally got something in it huh? haha...very sian coz sms kept coming...irritating...tml i am going to ask my exco members to pass msgs early and dun keep changing coz we need to inform other pple and it is wasting our sms! ya right i am very sick of that...everything last min...can they just decide earlier and not urgent msg late in the night like 9 something? ok maybe not that late..haiz
[singapore]..sars is back again! alamak...gotta take temp again? haiz...but i think this time sg is fully prepared...not to worry. the nicoll highway thing...haiz....ke lian ah....after sars sg gotta face this accident...another unlucky year.
[quote of the day] The only useful emotion is Compassion.
Anything else is too emotional or too emotionless.
The only useful reason is Wisdom.
Anything else is too rational or too unreasonable.

Compassion is Wisdom reaching out.
Wisdom is Compassion's guiding light.

Thus the middle path of spiritual cultivation
is to balance and perfect Compassion and Wisdom.

-stonepeace

Sweet Child O' Mine? : To Have or Not To Have Children?

One night, when I was 13, I asked my parents my first existential question on the meaning of life... "What is life for?" They were stumped for half a minute, till Dad attempted a lame reply, "Life is about schooling, growing up, work and play, marriage and kids." I remained silent, feeling betrayed by the ones who gave birth to me. What a lousy deal, this thing called life - which ends in eventual death anyway. I began breeding secret hatred at Mum and Dad, thinking I was conceived for supporting them in old age. How selfish! Only when I grew older did I realise most folks want children for a potpourri of mixed reasons. Many are plain lonely, more so than wanting to carry on the family name - which is an extension of familial and personal ego? Anyway, it wasn't so much of my parents wanting to create me, though we are karmically linked - but more of my own craving for life that rendered me reborn. Yup, I got me this deal - no one else to blame. In fact, I have to thank my parents (and my own good karma) for bringing me up well.


Some consider it a heinous "sin" for the married not to have any offspring - as if the purpose of life is to create more life. How ridiculous! If that was true, celibate monks and nuns, despite being great masters full of compassion and wisdom would be the greatest "sinners"! Do we justify our existence simply by bringing others into existence? Or by leading others beyond life and death in Enlightenment? Greed can manifest in wanting that which is not essential, which does not exist yet, eg. wanting to have and to hold one's children and their children (grandchildren). I used to think that to want to hear the pitter-patter of tiny feet around the house as nothing more than spiritual hollowness, craving for company, wanting someone to call your own. I thus found the child-bearing selfish, also seeing kids as potential harbingers and perpetuators of chaos and samsara in the family. Well, I was a difficult kid too!

That said, there is the other half of the picture... I usually say I don't have enough craving to want children. Nowadays, I say I don't have enough compassion to want children. The problem is never the "innocent" children themselves. The source of any suffering is always from our personal karma and attitude. It is noble and courageous to choose to provide conditioning factors for bringing beings into this precious human rebirth, where learning the Dharma is ideal. Bringing up kids with the Dharma is nothing less than nurturing future Buddhas, while trying to be a good Bodhisattva! Spiritually altruistic parenting is to bring up a child as a Bodhisattva would, lavishing years of selfless care on someone without any expectations of filial rewards. Because of the countless lessons (especially of patience) one will learn through bringing up a child, it can even be relatively more spiritually challenging to have children than not to! I salute all parents!

Anyway, this article is neither to encourage nor discourage child-bearing - but to present both sides of the picture, emphasising the importance of having right motivation in having or not having children. If you and your spouse prefer a simpler life with more time for quiet personal spiritual development, please go ahead! If you are confident of being able to do your bit in nurturing a future Buddha, please go ahead! One last thought for those who choose the latter... Should you want a child, imagine your child spiritually awakening one day, asking you why he was born? Will you be able to answer? I certainly hope so :-] -shian

See Related Article "Is Child-bearing Natural?" : http://moonpointer.com/stonepeace/backblog13.htm