Sunday, August 22, 2004

~something about me #8 - split personality?~

[#8] suddenly thought of this topic today...my definition for split personality is a person having different mindset and appearance...that means for example a person maybe look very cold on the outside but then he/she may be a very passionate person inside...
ok i am not that kind of people lah...i dun think i am suffering from split personality too.haha! but again i wonder what abt those pple who wear a mask? are they having split personality or they are just trying to hide their true personality?
honestly, people around me are mostly true-beings in that sense they dun wear a mask or have a split personality...except for some...ridiculous ones..better dun remind myself abt them..haiz
i am always curious how pple look at me..becoz of what i heard..haha! there are 2 types of response i knew of :
1. pple who barely knows me think that i am a very serious person with hardly any smiles on my face and i look fierce..hahaha! (guess my gd buddies will laugh like crazy) but then i gotta admit when i dun smile somehow i look quite serious..(mum said that too)...sobbz...
2. pple who knows me well enough think i am a crapper or joker...can be serious also lah but then 90% of the time i am siao lah...think becoz our friendship is not just on surface? so i can crapped abit?
i dun consider that as a split personality ba? i guess it's just that if i dun know someone well i wont talk much to that person or even bother abt that person ba...i am not those pple who will take initiative...except when i got no choice lah..haha! honestly, i dun like to communicate with pple i dunno...or pple whom i just know their names...haha! so i got few friends ah...if u've notice..
i sometimes really envy pple who can make many friends in school...i wonder how they do it..haha! there are always such pple around me...sobbzz...but then i am not too bothered abt how many friends i got lah..i just hope i can have real response on how they look at me as a friend.
i hate "fakers"...and i know it...woman's instinct? pls i dun have such instincts ah..dunno why? i am not a woman ba? wahahahhaha!
oh abt this topic abt if i am a gal or something...most pple dun c me like a gal lah...like a boy perhaps...hahaha i dun have a tomboy image for your information...and i dun c why i act like a boy or what...not feminine doesnt mean i am not a woman mah...haha! ( this whole chunk is crap for ya information) i dun talk like a gal lah i must say...i talk quite roughly with the words i use..
i am not those missy from rich homes ah...ping min lao bai xing is like tat de..haha!